I’m completely and utterly lost, and it scares the crap out of me. So much so that I cannot connect with my emotions when I want to. I’m swinging on a pendulum of pain that will not stop. I find myself attempting to manage the sudden shifts from sadness to anger only to find I’ve fallen into a sea of emotional disconnect. Feeling the feels … Continue reading A 90-degree Nightmare
Pessimism has always been easy for me, a normal part of life for as long as I can remember. A childhood painted with hues of distrust and disappointment. A life of overwhelming chaos and destruction. A life which simply seemed easier if I never expected anything. Expecting nothing allowed for moments of happy surprise – golden moments of peace. I considered myself a realist. Subscribing … Continue reading Golden Moments
I have become acutely aware of myself these past two years – A Blessing? A Curse? Both? In a moment of awareness, I have come to the realization that I spent my childhood both inwardly (most days) and outwardly living as an adult. Always assessing my environment, looking for danger, and reading – no CATCHING – people’s feelings. I learned very young to be a … Continue reading This is ME!
Do you ever feel odd or peculiar? Or like you just don’t fit? I do! Here’s the thing though; I don’t remember feeling this way when I was younger. That’s not to say I wasn’t odd or peculiar but either I was unaware or I simply did not care! I’m inclined to believe the latter. In my youth, I was very proud to wear the … Continue reading Fearfully and Wonderfully Made
Are you proudly embracing labels such as “Type-A,” “obsessive,” “perfectionist?” Have you ever? I DID! Now, I live with my eyes wide open… my mind unquestionably MINDFUL! We’ve all heard the words… awakened.. evolved… enlightened. My Dad says, “you are no longer asleep at the wheel” and I AGREE! When everything you thought you knew to be TRUE is ripped from your grasp and you … Continue reading No Longer Asleep at the Wheel