Reflections

(“Free-Flow Sessions:” Session 1) I sit here, drink to my left – Amaretto stone sour – a pile of fudge grahams next to it, and a bag of Lay’s potato chips to my right. I sit at Ed’s desk, plucking away at his laptop, a desperate attempt to push myself to “show up.” Another day of occupying myself as long as possible, only to find … Continue reading Reflections

Dark Truth: Daily Journals (1)

Fire Walls I’ve struggled for nearly a year; struggled to regain any form of structure and consistency. Struggled to ‘get through’ another season of physical and emotional exhaustion. Struggled to break old patterns and build new roads. Struggled to make connections deeper than a thimble. Struggled to commit to the things which bring me joy. But most of all, I have struggled to love and … Continue reading Dark Truth: Daily Journals (1)

Soul Strengthening Hues – Mindfulness

Wherever you go, There you are! What does it mean to be mindful, to be aware, or in the overused words of this current culture – WOKE? The answer is most definitely a matter of perception and perspective – from what angle are you viewing the quandary of what it is to be mindful? For me, mindfulness is first the conscious choice to take notice. … Continue reading Soul Strengthening Hues – Mindfulness

Broken Mirrors & Empty Boxes

I’m so tired of hiding. Do you want to know who I am? Who I really am? I’m the girl who found God and fell in love with Jesus nearly seven years ago. The girl that raps along to Eminem and sings ‘Bohemian Rhapsody’ at the top of her lungs. I’m the girl who desperately needs routine as much as I need a bit of … Continue reading Broken Mirrors & Empty Boxes

Love, Life & Codependency

I sit here this morning pondering the idea of friendship while listening to a millennial mix of trance and vocals. The kind of music that purposefully triggers one’s heart rate; the kind of music that gets you pumped. I love to play around with what may inspire me and improve my energy, especially while writing. Sometimes I have something to say, something my fear and … Continue reading Love, Life & Codependency

Moments: Waters of Change

As I sit listening to a playlist of relaxation music on YouTube, tones of piano fill my ears, and I’m reminded of weekly massages that seem a distant memory now. Just one of many reminders of how quickly life changes. The biggest reminder staring me in the face from the fence line of my backyard. An entire corner of the yard, dedicated to three of … Continue reading Moments: Waters of Change

Moments: Love, Loss, & Pets

I sit here listening to Miley Cyrus on YouTube, a compilation of ‘Happy Hippie’ live segments and her ‘Malibu’ video. A serendipitous moment, as I remember her losing her beloved dog Floyd, and openly grieving the tragedy. I couldn’t understand it at the time, I’ve lost pets throughout the years, to age, declining health and circumstance, but I’ve never felt the way I feel right … Continue reading Moments: Love, Loss, & Pets

Moments: Answered Prayers Pt. 1

‘But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know that the hand of the LORD has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of … Continue reading Moments: Answered Prayers Pt. 1

Old Wounds & New Scars

Old Wounds Four winters ago, I found myself hanging from a cliff, dangling and desperate to climb up. I survived that winter, allowing myself to believe I’d never slide off the cliff again. I wasn’t completely wrong, if you’re looking for me, you won’t find me dangling off a cliff. No, you’ll find me crashing through the waves as I’m being pulled down by the … Continue reading Old Wounds & New Scars

God’s Grace: Purpose & Perseverence

‘Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.’ Romans 5:3-5   I sit here this morning a bag of mixed emotions but not … Continue reading God’s Grace: Purpose & Perseverence