I wonder why we do it
Why we self-sabotage
Why we stand in the way of our own greatness
Ever present in the hijacking of our own dreams
These were my thoughts this morning as I stood in the kitchen, listening to my husband. Listening to him, once again, attempt to stand in the way of his own progress. We’ve been together for 25 years, you see, and I can see the signs. The evidence of a cycle lived out over and over again. A hesitation. The eagerness to dream overshadowed by the discomfort of the unknown. It’s in the not knowing sometimes… our fear. Have faith. Keep the faith. These are all easy words to say but the literal act of “walking it out” can be excruciating.
I’m beginning to see. For the first time in my life, it’s absolutely clear. We all struggle and we all struggle desperately with choice. The biggest choice of all – carry the garbage we’re comfortable with or drop it to pursue the unknown, the uncomfortable. No one ever achieved greatness in their comfort zone. I see this now. Greatness – whatever your definition – is achieved on the other side of your comfort zone. To get there, you MUST jump into the burning embers of discomfort.
This is more or less the conversation I had with my loving husband of two decades this morning. I’ve tried to guide him, steer him, and help him see, what I have always seen in him. What God clearly saw in him while in his Mother’s womb. I saw greatness in those chestnut eyes that sparkled when he smiled. I see greatness in the man he has become and has the potential to be. I see a man who could do anything – including being truly happy – yes happy. If only he would get out of the way. And have faith. Have faith in God. If not God, then in the knowledge that he, me, and we have been through the mud and muck of this life and WE’RE STILL STANDING…. WE’RE STILL HERE!
Press on my LOVE! Have faith – be at ease – lean in and live the life you were meant to live!
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3